Unpacking, that is the question

Well it's been two days since my mom's surgery and once again God has proved himself to be faithful.  The surgery went really well and Mom is in recovery mode.  Though it's going to be a tough couple of weeks ahead, just knowing that this could be the end of her health problems is so encouraging.  Thanks for all the prayers and support!

Since being back I've been going through a whirlwind of emotions.  I was obviously worried about my mom, but on the other hand, had such peace about it.  Maybe because I have seen God bring her through many other health issues already, I knew that He would once again be faithful.  Anyways having to leave North Myrtle Beach was really hard--thats actually an understatement--however I know that God called me back home to be with my family during this time.  While I may not totally understand why I had to leave, why God would take me from an environment where I am constantly being challenged in my face, making such strong christian friends, and stretching my comfort zone, I know that He has a plan.  I also know that sometimes that is easier said than done.  

I was telling a dear friend of mine that I don't even want to get back to being comfortable here at home.  I don't want to let go of all the amazing things and changes I went through while on project.  I have been fighting any sort of routines here at home, hoping that I could just zip my suitcase back up and catch the earliest flight back to the beach.  But I'm beginning to realize that my hope of returning may not be in His plans...at least for now.  Instead of trying to fight normalcy (ie. hanging out with close friends from home, even unpacking my suitcase!) I need to embrace it, and take everything I did learn in the 6 weeks I was in NMB, and live it out at home! I want people to see that God made a difference in my life these past couple of weeks.  

So today, I'm going to actually unpack my suitcase and be a light to the people I have been blessed with here at home. And as much as I want to go back to my second home and family, I will follow this new path that God has brought me too.  Because, honestly, who else better to follow than the One who "saw my unformed body, all of my days are ordained in His book, even before any of them have come to be".